Friday, February 1, 2008

INTRODUCING SHAUL (SHA-OOL)

MY NAME IS SHAULIEL A HEBREW ISREALITE NAME MEANING aSK OF gOD. fRIENDS AND FAMILY CALL ME sHAUL OR sHA FOR SHORT. aS A RAPPER, YES I SAID IT A "raPPER" WE'LL GET INTO THAT LATER BUT MY STAGE NAME IS SHAOO. THE NAME SHAwN WAS CREATED IN SIX grADE WHEN My tEACHER INSISTED THAT i sHOULD hAVE A nICK NAME tHAT SHE COULD pRONOUNCE SO wHAT THE HELL cALL ME sHAWn. i GUESS YOU CAN CALL ME THE GUY OF mANY NAMES OR tAKE YOUR pICK.

I WAS BORN AND RAISED IN CHICAGO ALONG WITH TWO SISTERS AND A BROTHER. I GREW UP LIKE EVERY OTHER INNER CITY HOOD SPLIT IN TWO. ONE SIDE WANTING TO DO WHATS RIGHT WHILE THE OTHER SIDE DID EVERYTHING ELSE. I LIVED IN A SINGLE PARENT HOME MEANING I HAD ALL THE FUN IN THE WORLD. AFTER SCHOOL INSTEAD OF HAVING DINNER COOKING AND A PARENT STANDING ON TOP OF ME MAKING SURE HOMEWORKS GETTING COMPLETE. I READ A NOTE THAT WENT A LITTLE SOMETHING LIKE THIS: HEY ITS YOUR MOM I LEFT 20 DOLLARS ON THE BED SO EVERYBODY CAN GET SOMETHING TO EAT. MAKE SURE EVERY BODIES IN THE HOUSE BY THE TIME THE STREET LIGHTS COME ON. I LOVE YOU. AND THATS IT. WHILE THE REST OF CHICAGO WAS EATING THEIR MOTHERS NASTY MEATLOAF AND LEFT OVERS OF WACKNESS MY BROTHER AND SISTERS ATE CHEESE BURGERS, PIZZA PUFFS, ITALIAN BEEFS, CHEESY FRIES AND EVERYTHING ELSE YOU CAN FIND ON A GREEZY SPOON MENU.

FROM THE MOMENT I WAS BORN UNTIL NOW I'VE NEVER KNOWN HOW TO LOVE ANYTHING ELSE BUT WORDS AND SOUNDS/POETRY AND MUSIC. ITS MY SHIZITT!! I HAVE A GREAT APPRECIATION AND RESPECT TO ALL GOOD ORATORS, SINGERS, SONG WRITERS, AUTHORS AND THE AVERAGE JOE AND JANE WITH THE GIFT OF GAB. MY TALENTS IN THIS FIELD IS LIKE AN ELUSIVE CHANT ALWAYS ON THE TIP OF MY TONG NEVER WITHIN MY GRIP. I ADVENTURE IN AND OUT OF RAPPING THESE DAYS I'VE BEEN OUT MORE SO THAN IN. LATELY FOR ME MY music SUCKS! I AM EXTREMELY FRUSTRATED WITH MY ABILITIES TO SPEAK, WRITE, EVEN READ. I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS. I THINK MY LOVE AND I ARE AT A BIT OF A CROSS ROAD. SOMETIME I FEEL SHE WANTS TO LEAVE ME, MAYBE FIND SOMEONE ELSE WHO CAN ARTICULATE HER BETTER. OR EXPAND ON HER HORIZON WITH OUT CLINCHING WEBSTER WITH CLAMMY PALMS RUNNING OUT OF WORDS. BOY, AM I PITIFUL. I USE TO BE IN A RAP GROUP CALLED GUTTER BROS. WE DID SHOWS AROUND THE MIDWEST MAINLY IN IOWA. WE HAD A REAL INDIE UNDERGROUND BACK PACK HIP HOP FEEL. PEOPLE SEEMED TO LIKE IT THE FEW THAT HEARD IT. AND EVEN THEN MY CONNECTION WITH MUSIC WASN'T GENUINE.

I TEND TO DO WHAT I FEEL. AND TO SOME PEOPLE THAT MAY SEEM AS A LUXURY BUT TO ME ITS A PRICE I CANT ALWAYS AFFORD TO PAY. I DRIFT TO AND FROM THINGS TOO MUCH, IMPORTANT THINGS LIKE GOALS, CAREERS, LIKES AND DISLIKES, SHORT TERM AND IN THE FUTURE. I CANT HELP IT I FEEL WHAT I DO ITS A CURSE! I BELIEVE ITS SOMETHING TO DO WITH ME BEING A SAGITTARIUS. I HAVE TOO MUCH PASSION. I'M ALWAYS SO SCORCHING HOT I BURN DOWN THINGS UNTIL NOTHINGS LEFT TO FEED THE FLAMES. HUH?

1 comment:

Nilsa S. said...

I saw your RSVP for Chicago Bloggers ... and I love this post! For a time, I was an inner city child and it is the lessons learned during that period of my life that have greatly shaped who I am today.